You know those people who've always known what they want to be or do in life? That drive, ambition and that purpose. They are so lucky.
The worst part is that they don't understand people like us. We, without ambition, without skills or drive. We who are floating in nothingness wondering what we are supposed to do.
"You just have to find something you are good at or what you like to do, and go for it" is what they tell us. It is not that easy. Our first world society is designed in such a way that you have to choose a career direction when you are just a teenager. Then when you are 17-18 you are expected to make your life's decision. Work or study and what kind, which one. This choice will influence the rest of your life.
Around a certain age, you are expected to have a certain amount of experience. If not experience then they expect you to have a degree. If you have neither of those, you will not be considered. It is as simple as that. You are, too late. Too late because you didn’t know what you wanted when it mattered.
As a result, people tend to stick to what they know, instead of trying to find something they want in life. If you worked in customer service it makes sense for you to grow into a manager position. It's not like you love your job or anything... but what else are you supposed to do? Maybe you helped your school with administrative work, and then you might as well become a secretary there. Why wouldn't you take the easy route. It doesn't make you happy, but it’s just a job. And even if you know what job would make you happy, it's too late by now. You don’t have the experience, and since you didn't know early on what you wanted, you also chose the wrong degree.
We are the people without drive, without ambition and without purpose.
There is always a way to get what you want, but the longer you wait the more difficult it gets. And we were ambitionless to start with it. If we didn't do it from the start, chances are we aren't ever going to do it. And that’s sad. But also reality.
Ambitionless used to be rare. Not so much nowadays. We are everywhere but we don't like it. But what can you do about it? What happened in our part of the world that just evaporated the drive of young people, and what does it mean for our future?
These are the things I wonder when I ponder my Past Doni's choices. Would I now know what choices to make?